It's Been a While

It's been a while since I've had late nights like this up. For the most part, my day has been quite uneventful. I woke up pretty late, did some cleaning, took my grandparents to church, and spent the evening with Dom and Fenix chainsawing locusts, shooting drones and boom shotting grinders. I forgot to mention that I did pick up bubble tea before coming home, which may explain the late night up. Work life and networking has been going well, I'm taking things at a steady pace.. though sometimes things aren't always how you anticipate or plan them to be.

Which leads me to thoughts on planning. I've always been that type that professionally can run a tight ship, get things done, make magic and hunt the waters incessantly with no need for sleep. It's when it comes time to start settling in, and making decisions for my personal life, that I prefer to be more carefree and forgiving on constraints. It's definitely an oddity that professionally I'm up for any challenge and want to grow to the universes' end, but personally I always fear change, roots, and I guess in some sense growing up. I think no matter how successful or "grown up" I become, a part of me will never sell the transformers, give up the comic books, or stop the video games.. but the frequency may just decrease. Hey it's kocher for adults to game now, isn't that the demographic that's being targeted?

In a recent commercial for the Nintendo DS replacement, the DSi, it was mildly creepy that there was not one child in the commercial.

I've been thinking of some recent changes in my life lately that have hit me like a towel in the face by a man demanding his sandwich. Although quite jarring, it's definitely an awakening. If you were to ask me if I'm happy at where I am in life, my definite answer would be yes. I think a part of me sometimes grips entirely too tenaciously on past experiences, peer to peer stories, and fears of epic failures. The irony is that I'm practically a spokes person for living life with little inhibitions and not wasting time on what ifs. Similarly to how I feel people should not spend 5 days of their week waiting for a mere two days to come, I know I should not waste nights fretting over a future of circumstances or a "mountain of maybes." When it's good, it's good. :) I'll leave it at that.

I'm off to read Naruto, not mind the little things, and try to get some sleep.

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